"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find;knock and the door will be opened to you." - Mt 7: 7
Esther asked, and it was given. So why has my son not been healed of his illness while my daughter has been healed? I prayed equally for both of them. Are the sobs of a loving mother not enough?
When I chose this day to write a reflection, I had no idea that those words would come springing forth, that I would be writing and sobbing at the same time. God could ask me whether one miraculous healing is not enough. Why be so greedy? But God is kinder than that. So, what is Jesus talking about here?
I know that God is not Santa Claus, I know that when we ask, seek, and knock as adults, we do so actively. We expect to be part of the answer, to be tirelessly looking under every stone, and to be knocking on every door. But I am seventy-one today! How long does this have to go on? So many people are asking that very question every day, and from the Psalms we know that it is an ageless question, "How long?" So, what is Jesus talking about here?
I don't know. I do know that God loves me, and that God loves my son. Some people get healed and some don't. Sometimes what looks like illness or affliction to most of us turns out to be blessing and grace. My dark place can become a beacon of light for someone else. Helen Keller was not given her sight or hearing, yet she gave many others a new way to see and hear.
Ask and it will be given to you.
Reflected by Sharon Sullivan
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